Made my day

In English whoever got a unexpected good moment in a day we use the phrase: you have made my day.

It could be an appreciation sentence, could be someone did something nice for you or something just make you feel very nice, brighten up your day since we don't have that 99% of our time.

Guess who have made my day?

Few that follow my working dairy (some of them are in chinese) that knew there were this boy being introduced by my cousin to help his English, he is about 8 years old, smart but lack of confident.

And i gumble (well, not that bad but i like to gumble) I have to take train to a village (yes, a village in Hong Kong!) far away every thursday night for a 100 bucks, it took away my appointment time slot, as well as the resting time at home.

Anyway, he was totally lack of interest in English, basically it is because he cannot succeed in it, and very concentrate on his artistic side - drawing, which he finds extremely easy.

We got along very well since i see a lot of me in him, and rebuild his confident little by little, before i came, his best english exam result is 40%, mostly got 10, 20% even 0%, his mum has been scolded, beat, encourage, ........... he just would not do it, as I have mentioned before, in one occassion he feared to look at his score so much he actually ran into the dark bedroom and cover his eyes shout: don't tell me!

Yet he is too lovable that his teachers and everyone just let him slip away easily, saying it is alright.

About 2 months ago his mum has ended the teaching due to family issues.

He texted me yestersday saying he got 98% in an English test!

I thought what i did was stupid, just like i said i don't care about money, i don't care about respect, i don't care about my image, i don't care about appreciation, and i don't care about blessing.

I didn't care when I did not have it, and when I have it, it feels vey nice after all.

Jason, you are not old enough to read this, even though I have earned about 800 bucks from your mum and the transportation have already taken 30% of it, totally not cost effective and time consuming, but it worths it, well done, good man. *thumb up*

Birthday Present

people like me won't throw big party, from my point of view if 200 people attend my party, 95% i do not know, or hi bye friend, they go for different reason, meet new friends, etcetc, then i rather stick with that 5% close friends to have a close gathering = more fun.

Even though I have said that, i think this job change me bits by bits, what's wrong with creating an event using my birthday as an excuse to let people meet new friends? Isn't that the church make a day for Jesus call it Christmas so people can make money and look for one night stand? it works pretty well so far (sarcastically)

My 27 years old has nothing special, have some personal meaning at night, appreciate those who care about my existence and not arrogant enough to think the whole world should know me, glad my attitude has improved too.

So my parents who love me so much did not use to get me presents, like "super-spiritual" and totally "anit-down-to-earth" religious background this year they have changed too.

My mum used her kindergarten grade PowerPoint skill made me a birthday poster and stick it on my bedroom door.

Then they told me the 10K Hong Kong Dollar in my bank will be given to me instead of lend it to me! And she got me a chair from Ikea! compare to no presents day, can you believe how happy I am?

So I have started to plan to use them wisely.

According the book about Warren Buffet, if you give him 10K US in 1956, he will return 270 Million in 2002 that you have to do nothing. I can never be as good as him, but if i invest instead of getting something expensive for myself, it can acc. up to 2-3 Million in 10-15 years.

But I don't need that much of money, and sacrifice my personal enjoyment, you see money are useful when they are spent after all, what if i got 100 billion in my bank account that i only treat myself like shxt, that's not a life.

Then there are couple things i want to buy.

A PC driving game called GRID to replace that crappy NFS: undercover fooled by Maggie Q's cover I got 2 months ago, haha.

Or a digital camera which i still havn't got one (not even in my phone), hmmmmmm.. tempting

Or a proper mobile phone to replace my mono-color screen Nokia, tempting too.

Or get a tank of fish to brighten up my boring office desk.

Or donate them as charity. (very unlikely)

Or ..... do nothing... na.. got great ideas.

When architect meets insurance

Today i have signed a life saving plan with a architect friend who is still working in England.

since our office is changing to smart office (paperless), they have to break down all the individual meeting rooms, we have to do it in the conference room.

Anyway, i show him my working area, which is a 2m x 1m x 1.5m high desk with chair and a drawer. He mentioned he does not really like the design of our office, with all the high wall build up between desk, actually most of the insurance company office is like that.

That's what the company intend to do, work as individual, the less communication as possible, isolated, people don't talk to other, it is crazy! sometimes most agents don't even smile or look at you when they walk past, it's like everyone is totally invisible to them!

the longer they serve, the more it becomes, frankly i am happy my boss isn't like that, still 20 years + you can still tell there can be no honest conversation, ok, maybe honest is a bit too much, just normal plain conversation, e.g. what you doing during the weekend, what you having lunch?

they don't even encourage colleagues have lunch together, it means you have no appointment with clients! it is logical but sad..

I hope I can break the chain and make some change in the office, i think i feel this way as a normal person, it is intolerant for an architect which work about design and stuffs.

ok, i admit i am a little bit over-dramatic, it isn't that bad to me, actually i start to enjoy it, i am thinking getting a tank of fish on my desk, and a proper computer.

but i am making the point sometimes a job look nice, working a big firm, get a lot of flexible time, or when people want to make big money, there is a price to pay.

Human iceberg

does it occur to you when you look at a 6"2 tall man weight 220lbs you feel he can definitely beat someone to death?

or a extremely hot woman she is probably very good in bed?

or a millionaire he/she should not have any worries in his/her life?

Of course not, the % of billionaire commit suicide is much higher than normal people, and people who are good in bed probably look very normal, murders always look very kind and slim. Yet still our perspective always guide us to link the image of one person to another.

i start to love my job because it kept telling my incorrect point of view towards human from the past, how i look and judge people, even those i know for 10, 20 years.

you see people are like iceberg, 90% of our mass and stuffs go under water, and that 10% above water cannot tell you much, that's how we dress, how we talk, how we present ourselves and it can go completely wrong.

and people don't have time or bother to go under water and look at it, maybe that is impolite to dig deeper, yet how much we have under water can be tested when crisis comes along, people who are heavy do not flow or moved easily, and those who have nothing below water and waste most of their time shaping the 10% will be blow away like feather.

i really like what my boss have taught me: it is not about who you know, it is about how much you know.

Little women

Little Women or, Meg, Jo, Beth and Amy is a novel by American author Louisa May Alcott (1832–1888). Written and published in two parts in 1868 and 1869, the novel follows the lives of four sisters — Meg, Jo, Beth and Amy March — and is loosely based on the author's childhood experiences with her three sisters.

I honestly feel this book have influenced a lot of successful stories and drama e.g. Friends, Desperate Housewives, etc which draw pictures of small people with close relationship.

It is never about changing the world nor saving the humanity, or going to the moon.

The reason why I have chosen this topic is because we had an annual meeting for Manulife the insurance company 2 days ago, since the economy went down, the insurance company have to cut down the cost in making a good mood! that affect the location of the events, the quality of the promotion, etc.

Basically this sort of meeting are held once a year, all agents (around 3500 people) have to go there to listen some bullshit they try to inject in our brain.

This year's theme is the "art of war" by Sun Tzu, manulife have taken the 5 elements within it but totally abuse the true meaning, but well, it is about the mood with drums and everything make people believe what they are saying, that's not important.

To me, insurance in board view can be extremely complex, it cannot fit into one men's brain because the system is too complex for one man to handle.

But fundamentally why people chosen to have protection is not black and white or how much money, people are looking for caring and listener, support and friendship, someone they can see and rely on, not a piece of paper that can be claim money when they are dead.

When it comes to that, I suddenly realise what have the whole insurance industry has gone wrong, there should be millions of little stories like little women happening in real life, together it construct an extremely large human network around the world, instead of % on the huge projector saying: we are winning!

What the fxxk is that? the system is like a skeleton of the building, but what people care is not the skeleton of the building, but how they feel comfortable living within it.

after 6 months, I finally realise why people hate insurance agents so much, not because the system has anything wrong, but it is how the insurance company train us in a wrong direction.

We don't sell policy, we sell protection.

We don't sell funds, we sell relationship.

We don't sell the company, we sell trust.

Wargame...

Today i have joined my friends to the first wargame, it felt great! i always had love for guns and battles and wars.

thanks to my cousin she was awesome with her husband to make this happen.

i had a close encounter experience have people fight each other, it is only a game but when you are in it, you want to take it seriously, freakly tired.

it is always different when you imagine in your head and actually do it, holding a airsoft gun and clicking a mouse button to play a first person shooter already have a lot of different, i cannot imagine how much different it must be to be in a real war firing a real gun.

when i was back in uk doing my computering business, i met this British solider who was serving in iraq who wanted to get a gaming computer for his birthday present. talking to him on the MSN stating he has his UK standard rifle next to him make me feel so cool, then i realized it was not that cool after all.

i felt my strength start to build up after my mindset was fixed, still i was not able to claw between the grass for a very long time.

yet a very big impact to me today is i want to know more, experience more, because when people say i know something and he did not actually did it once, you cannot take his/her words seriously.

driving game and real car is different

watch the animals in TV and really get close to them in real life is different

how would people feel and behave differently when it comes to war and fighting?

I asked the instructor about something with the sniper in wargame. he said in a real war, the sniper range 800-1000m while a normal rifle range around 300-400m, when a solider ed to run from 800m to 300m able to put the sniper in his attack range, he has to run 400-500m between covers carry 20+kg load.

but in a wargame, an airsoft sniper rifle has only 60feet range while an airsoft normal rifle have range around 40 feet, it is pointless because the player only need to run about 20 feet to put the sniper in his own attack range.

there is still a huge different between war game and real war...

Giant leap for Chinese men

first Christmas in Hong Kong after 8 years, did not go out, cannot be bothered, already too tired, this is good and bad thing about single during the romantic festival.

Anyway, went to China my ex-work place to get back some clothes, have lunch with the boss and his lovely wife with my mum, good to see some colleagues and i definitely feel better, i have felt i have already able to fuse in with the local Chinese, it took away many bias from the western education about China, they are very happy to see me too.

this is more solid to see that the factory is remind stable during difficult time, i hope i can heavily invest in this company who has a lot of potential, esp. when i know the people, it was the only reason i dare to work in china while most of the people cannot stand it, it was hard but it definitely the right and good move, happy happy.

I become more clam and less abusive about my life, thanks God to that and those who secretly pray for me, i think God will reward them 100 time more than i can afford.

To grab some fresh air, i have the tendency to become more God-centre and less self-centre, whenever i do that i felt my problem isn't really a problem, whenever i want to act according to my desire, i felt heavier, because i put all the unnecessary baggage on my shoulder while i can share it with God and make my life easier.

Another sweet thing i heard is the flower on my ex-boss's wife table, there were time the company in an extreme situation my ex-boss have arguments with his wife, he can be very abusive and egotism as well even though he is a Christian, very understandable if you have worked in China, anyway his wife got very very upset and decide to leave the job.

What his wife's bearing is very important role and basically devote herself into her husband's ambition, all my ex-boss did was send her flower, write a sorry card and apologies, and his woman able to totally devote for her husband because of love again.

it sounds not a big deal, it is a big deal, i start to understand all women fundamental want the same thing, just a little things can satisfy them then they are totally fall for a man they love, and why on earth most of us including myself find it so difficult to do those little things? i mean is it really difficult? yes it is, it is goddamn hard, why is it so hard? i ain't so certain, but to me my ex-boss did a great job at the age nearly 60, he isn't a nice guy, and people should know nice guy cannot run a factory.

That's one small step for a man, one giant leap for Chinese men!