As great as I can be

People think great person is someone like a war hero, one against 100, or some sort of big-cooperation CEO, or someone invent something to change the way we live, or extraordinary people who save a little kids from car crash, etc.

They can be, not as great as those who live among the reality, a single mother who raise her 3 children all by herself, or a disable person who live a optimistic happy life, or a normal people who has courage to stand against injustice..

Yet even greatest hero or the strongest need time to beg for mercy sometimes, feeling weak and lost the purpose and question for what?

The single mother can explain there are so many mother don't care about their own children, their children is living fine, I can just relax myself for awhile, they will be fine as long as I don't feed them drugs or something, if they choose to go down the wrong path, it was their own choice.

The disable person can say to himself, among all these people why it is me who is disable, do the maths, calculate the %, check the statistic fact sheets, i don't see the reason i belong to this %.

Those who oppose the unjust can say, there are so many unfairness in this world already, mine should not be so important, just let it go.

You know great people do not lie in front of the mirror, the work behind them, those people cannot been seen, make them whoever they are now, and the more i see it, there is no try being, there is only force being, no mother want to be single, no one want to be disable, no one want to be treated unfairly, all these little things we encounter each day has become a sticks hitting us behind us.

You see after the children has grew up, will the mother say i would like to do this again? If the disable person have a chance to get well, will he not take it and say I am fine because i have already living a optimistic life? Or will the victim of injustice claim he/she would like to treated unfairly again because it is so cool to fight back?

So what a great man suppose to live is like when people ask him before his death: Do you want to live again?

He should say: Nah, I don't want to, it was so goddamn hard but what I did was necessary and good.