This month i have attended to three weddings and
last night I have finally attended to a funeral.
I want to know more about human emotion since i have no experience in my entire life, i read people like a wikipedia.
Sadness = is an emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, and helplessness. When sad, people often become quiet, less energetic, and withdrawn.
Happiness = is an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have been taken to defining happiness and identifying its sources.
I don't know for what reason I have none in my life, I got all the reason I want to blame my parents and their education, but at the same time can i really blame them?
Anyway can't work out the shitty past they claim to be good, I am off to the highway now, weddings are happy place and funeral is a sad place, i want to understand both, why men has tears and why woman wave their hands before they get marry. Then I have found out I am such a sad person living a life like this, i have lost my 26 years, the more i think of it, the more i want my parents go to hell, well, i can't, because i should love them, “should” but i can't.
Anyway, as polite and civilize person i feel sorrow for them, yet I can't even I want to understand their pain, the funeral is a mother of friends of my dad, they served in the same church and split up, haven't talked in years, they saw me grew up and i saw them debate with my dad, my mum and myself represent my family.
The funeral is held in Chinese Christianity tradition, even that it is full of sadness (please note sadness is an emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, and helplessness.), i prefer the western one, simple and less religious, bring some flowers in the afternoon, ashes to ashes, dust to dust, everyone wearing a sunglasses, black suit, jobs' done, everyone go home. I want to know what it feels like when I lost someone I love, but I don't want to see that happen at the same time?
The Chinese one has to be at night, sometimes the relative have to stay over-night, then every guest has to walk along and look at the dead people to pay our final respect, i had no intention to look at a dead woman i don't even meet in life, but i am sure the respect have to show for those who is still living today.
For my own funeral this is a big no no, why look upon the dead when respect and love only mean to those who once lived? For those important to me will eventually meet in heaven anyway supposed to be something really happy.
I had no contribution but I start to realize if I want to understand more I need to experience more. It is another confirmation why I need to take this job as an insurance agent, is to learn how to understand.
I want to know more about human emotion since i have no experience in my entire life, i read people like a wikipedia.
Sadness = is an emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, and helplessness. When sad, people often become quiet, less energetic, and withdrawn.
Happiness = is an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have been taken to defining happiness and identifying its sources.
I don't know for what reason I have none in my life, I got all the reason I want to blame my parents and their education, but at the same time can i really blame them?
Anyway can't work out the shitty past they claim to be good, I am off to the highway now, weddings are happy place and funeral is a sad place, i want to understand both, why men has tears and why woman wave their hands before they get marry. Then I have found out I am such a sad person living a life like this, i have lost my 26 years, the more i think of it, the more i want my parents go to hell, well, i can't, because i should love them, “should” but i can't.
Anyway, as polite and civilize person i feel sorrow for them, yet I can't even I want to understand their pain, the funeral is a mother of friends of my dad, they served in the same church and split up, haven't talked in years, they saw me grew up and i saw them debate with my dad, my mum and myself represent my family.
The funeral is held in Chinese Christianity tradition, even that it is full of sadness (please note sadness is an emotion characterized by feelings of disadvantage, loss, and helplessness.), i prefer the western one, simple and less religious, bring some flowers in the afternoon, ashes to ashes, dust to dust, everyone wearing a sunglasses, black suit, jobs' done, everyone go home. I want to know what it feels like when I lost someone I love, but I don't want to see that happen at the same time?
The Chinese one has to be at night, sometimes the relative have to stay over-night, then every guest has to walk along and look at the dead people to pay our final respect, i had no intention to look at a dead woman i don't even meet in life, but i am sure the respect have to show for those who is still living today.
For my own funeral this is a big no no, why look upon the dead when respect and love only mean to those who once lived? For those important to me will eventually meet in heaven anyway supposed to be something really happy.
I had no contribution but I start to realize if I want to understand more I need to experience more. It is another confirmation why I need to take this job as an insurance agent, is to learn how to understand.
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